Friday, August 31, 2012

Post Op

Surgery went well! I am up and moving this am with only a little pain. The gas pains are probably the worst part of it all so far.
The barium swallow test was perfect, so I will be able to have liquids this am!!! I'm excited about that!
My friend, we'll call her K-cup, has been amazing throughout this whole process since hubby had to take care of the baby and work. She's a doll!
I will write more soon, just wanted to say thank you for all of your well wishes, thoughts and prayers. I could definitely feel the love here with me!


Wednesday, August 29, 2012

The Day Before The First Day Of The Rest Of My Life

Ok ok, super long title, but it says it all really!

First of all THANK YOU all for following me on this journey and for all of your lovely comments. Knowing that I have this support really makes me less terrified and more excited to move forward. :)

Tomorrow is the big day and I am feeling nervous and excited all at once. It's a good thing I have a messy house to clean and a 14 month old to chase around, otherwise you would find me in the back of my closet spooning cookie dough into my face. Oh yes, this has happened!!!! I am THAT girl.
Thank god that i will have help after too! My lovely parents will be coming to help take care of the kidlet since hubby has to work everyday this weekend, so that will be nice.

So let's talk about fears:
Waking up during surgery
Feeling everything and not being able to say anything
My port getting flipped backwards
Not being able to tolerate liquids after
Failing at this whole process
Letting the whole world down! (drama queen!!!!)

I will come out of anesthesia happy and not screaming and crying like usual.
I will be able to drink water right away since I'm NPO from midnight tonight and surgery isn't until tomorrow afternoon.
I will use this tool to my full advantage and continue on with the healthy diet and exercise that I've already implemented.
Reach my mini goals on time so I don't get discouraged.

There's a mini rundown of my Fears and hopes, with hopes at the end so I can end this positively. I'll leave you with my official Pre surgery stats:

Weight: 267 (yeah I had my last piece of pizza last night and it was damn good!)
Measurements were all the same. :)

First mini goal: 230 by 12/25/2012
I realize this may be low, but I don't want to rush it, after all you never rush a lady when she is primping for a party.

See y'all on the other side!

Sunday, August 26, 2012


I think the most useful tool that I noticed on previous blogs is being honest and keeping track of your actual weight and measurements. This is crazy hard to put out on the internet, but here goes.

Heaviest weight: 285 pounds, just call me Big Mama (9 months pregnant with my son in May, 2011)

Post pregnancy:  270-280 until May 2012

         (probably about 275 here in this pic, taken in October 2011.)

Current weight:  265 and holding strong.
(did get down to 255, but i think that was a fluke because it only lasted a week or two.)

Current Measurements:
Bust: 52"
Neck:  17"
Waist: 55"
Hips :  51"
Biceps: L: 16" R: 16"
Thighs: L: 31.5" R: 31"

(Maybe there is hope for an hourglass figure??)

                         (Taken in July, at about 265 pounds.)

Phase One: The decision

I have spent countless hours contemplating what my life could be like, how different it would be if I wasn't fat. I have yo-yo dieted from age 13 and have had success with weight watchers, but was never able to keep it off. It took almost losing my son when he was born to make this decision, and now that I have, I am not looking back.

My name is Sara and I will soon be a bander. My surgery is on August 30th and I am super excited, nervous, oh and did I mention EXCITED?! I am so ready to take this next step in my life. I am so ready to shop in the regular stores and to chase my son around without feeling winded. I am excited to present myself as a healthy person to my patients, and most of all to look in the mirror and be happy with who I am and what I look like! I can't wait to feel sexy in my own skin and not rely on spanx to make me feel good in a dress. But above all of this, I am ready to take control of my life, to grab a hold and to steer it in the direction I want to go and NEVER, EVER let my weight dictate what I can and cannot do ever again.

I wasn't planning on doing a blog about this, as I am not sure if I will even have time to keep it up, but because I utilized so many different blogs on the journey to my decision, I decided that it would be a good thing to share my story too. And maybe, just maybe, being held accountable by whoever decides to read this will help me along the way as well! Thanks for reading!