The Day Before The First Day Of The Rest Of My Life

Ok ok, super long title, but it says it all really!

First of all THANK YOU all for following me on this journey and for all of your lovely comments. Knowing that I have this support really makes me less terrified and more excited to move forward. :)

Tomorrow is the big day and I am feeling nervous and excited all at once. It's a good thing I have a messy house to clean and a 14 month old to chase around, otherwise you would find me in the back of my closet spooning cookie dough into my face. Oh yes, this has happened!!!! I am THAT girl.
Thank god that i will have help after too! My lovely parents will be coming to help take care of the kidlet since hubby has to work everyday this weekend, so that will be nice.

So let's talk about fears:
Waking up during surgery
Feeling everything and not being able to say anything
My port getting flipped backwards
Not being able to tolerate liquids after
Failing at this whole process
Letting the whole world down! (drama queen!!!!)

Hopes:
I will come out of anesthesia happy and not screaming and crying like usual.
I will be able to drink water right away since I'm NPO from midnight tonight and surgery isn't until tomorrow afternoon.
I will use this tool to my full advantage and continue on with the healthy diet and exercise that I've already implemented.
Reach my mini goals on time so I don't get discouraged.


There's a mini rundown of my Fears and hopes, with hopes at the end so I can end this positively. I'll leave you with my official Pre surgery stats:

Weight: 267 (yeah I had my last piece of pizza last night and it was damn good!)
Measurements were all the same. :)

First mini goal: 230 by 12/25/2012
I realize this may be low, but I don't want to rush it, after all you never rush a lady when she is primping for a party.

See y'all on the other side!